Did we Break-Up?

Is it really over?
WAIT! Don't leave yet.
Hug me one more time PLEASE!
talk to me just a little longer, Have one more drink for old time sake.

      How can we break up if we never dated. Why do I feel as if apart of me is gone?
I got so attached to you, without you even noticing how attached I actually got. When my friend stopped talking to me, I replaced him with you. I wish I hadn't put you up so high in the ranks of such a close friend.

     I'm angry that I let you go without saying anything, and now I fear I made you "The one that got away".
I never thought I was one to "eat my feelings" but I gobbled down 3 pints of ice cream last week. (I've been telling people its only been 2 pints) I'm having the hardest time listening to music, and watching movies because I feel like its about you or us. An us that never actually exist.

     I know why I'm so in to you. I know how bad we would be together. I know what your looking for. and I know what you want out of life. So why do I feel like you broke up with me? Then I ask myself how long will it be before your just a memory. or when I forget your face and can barely remember your name. The time I go through my pictures and I wonder 'Whatever happened to...'

     Now the funny thing about all of this is, You know nothing about me, We have nothing in common, and you could careless about my thoughts most of the time we had anything to talk about. I have little tears because of these major factors and yet doesn't stop the feeling that we are no more. But we never was anything to begin with.. I'm confused, I've confused my mind and soul all over one person.

Confession Time:

   Do you remember when you said I was "Awkward"
I'm only awkward around you. You kind of make me nervous. I feel like I can't be calm in front of you. I hate that I have a hard time verbalizing in front of you.
That day we had burgers and watched a movie, I was so nervous, snd kind of uncomforable too, I loved the conversation we had on your way to my house. but I felt bad you hated the movie...
I felt like that would be the last time the two of us would ever hangout together alone (I was right)

We only have one picture that exist of us two and it might be the last one we will ever have. I just wish you would have smiled in it.

-Terri