Life Changes

Life is a funny thing. We are given life by another, we are taught things by others, then one day told to form our own opinions of things and then live life on these thoughts. We are told that it is "Ok" if we make mistakes. Some mistakes become lessons learned and others become Life Changes. We are only given to ways to live, with no grey areas allowed. Its either live life like its no tomorrow, or live like you have time for years and a future to plan for. I have a wide range of friends in very different parts in their lives (these are where we find the grey areas that aren't suppose to exist BUT DO!!!

I have friends who are married, and planning for families, some finishing up college and starting to focus on their careers, some who are still unsure where they are going and always my favorite the ones with the life plans no room for fuck ups.Then you have the ones like me, who just go by goals. as long as these goals are met "Hey, I''m good". The flaw in this one is, some goals seem a little more out of reach then others. I find it interesting when people are my age and married, or who know what to expect in the next few years. It almost scares me, not what they are doing but, the fact that I feel like I'm not to a point I can be proud of. I guess more of a point I can brag about.

Lets face it, I am product of a society where you have to be doing better then the next person. This is why some love to go to class reunions and brag about how good time has been to them. How much they have done, and how much they still have planned. On the flip side of this is the hope that although your not some millionaire or a famous performer maybe, just maybe they will see that you are very happy in your life. We get these moment as a little bit of gratification that maybe I did come off on top. Sometimes these moments are created by our own family. We want to show them that any time or money spent on us was not done in vain. That we have given them something to brag about with their friends.

But, this is about me, right? Now, I do have goals, long and short term. Now these are not to be mistaken as priorities either. Like going and finishing school is a priority. Education will never be a privilege but, a right.  Now the time frame for when that will happen is when things do get fuzzy. My goals don't necessarily require an education for them to become a reality (Its my "dreams" that require it more). So what do I have to show for what I have done. I am hoping between my own drive that it will be seen really soon.